I feel a great movement in my life. I feel it in my heart right now, like a weight, the heaviness that is all of this life swirling around me, ever-changing, outside the grasp of my fingers; no matter how tightly they close, I am left with air, and myself. We have to say good-bye, …
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Happiness: at least a strong hint about who you really are There's no reason to say 'No' to happiness when it comes. How many times have I shortchanged myself, held myself back from enjoying the moment in front of me, because I thought I had somewhere else to be, was worried about being late, was …
I woke up at 5:30 this morning for Crossfit. I didn’t want to leave my bed. I could have slept another hour or two. And maybe I should have? I have this argument with myself sometimes in the morning, in bed, or even after I’ve gotten out of bed, before I’ve fully woken up. Some …
When we decide to take a leap towards our dreams, based on our intuition, heart, and higher guidance... we step into the unknown. This spiritual unknown is a lot like the wilderness, and it can trigger a lot of fear in us. Some points for counteracting the chaotic side of the wilderness and thriving: 1 …
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Do you ever wake up on the wrong side of the bed, with weird or uncomfortable feelings? Waking up with wonky feelings is something that can set me off on a negative mental train, and it can hang like a cloud over me, ruining my whole day. Does that happen to you? What are your …
I started the year with a 10 1/2 day fast, which I broke last Saturday. To my dismay, I rebounded into what felt like a long, semi-continuous binge / disordered eating episode. It's been a journey. I mean, I've been here before, and probably it's been more a part of my life than I want …
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The way of moving forward that comes only from the head is two-dimensional, and will no longer work. It used to work better than it works now. For some people, it is still working. For others, it is being shown to be problematic. We are waking up into a new way of being. It is …
What a journey, life. What a year so far! It started with the breakup! I mean, really, wow! I didn't see it coming, I wasn't ready for it... and yet, it is now done, and life is moving on, and slowly I am reimagining this life and my place in it. There are moments of …
Breakups are hard. Part of me is here, and happy to be here; part of me reaches toward the reality I just left, aches for the comfortable and the familiar. There was a stability in that structure; I built myself on top of it for four years; now I must rebuild from the ground, of …
It is January 4, 2019. I'm sitting at home on the couch. I've been reading, journaling, petting the house cats, thinking, feeling. So many feelings the past few days. So much processing. I broke a 55-hour dry fast with water this morning. I'm holding a water fast for now, maybe through the weekend, maybe longer. …
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Expressions from this side of the here & now 