The past few days I've had a shift in awareness of my current life circumstance. I have really struggled internally on-and-off with my current line of work in tech, feeling that it isn't perfectly aligned with my passions and therefore is somehow wrong or bad, or that I'm living a lie by working this career …
Category: What’s here now
How To Consciously Fall In Love With Where You Are
Ah, love... that ultimate bliss experience, the moments where we are experiencing the truth of our being, which is a beautiful Oneness. Oneness (Unity) is everywhere at all times. No matter your circumstance, there is always a field of bliss that is accessible to you through your consciousness, through the state of your awareness and …
Continue reading How To Consciously Fall In Love With Where You Are
How Coronavirus Is Inviting A Shift Into New Consciousness
It is a time of unprecedented change. We have never lived through something quite like this coronavirus. Many of the processes that have been operating in our daily lives are at a standstill right now. And when something in the physical world forces us to stop, there is an opportunity - an opening - for …
Continue reading How Coronavirus Is Inviting A Shift Into New Consciousness
Three Steps to Surviving & Thriving When Sh** Hits The Fan
My head is clear for the first time in months. It's been a journey since the last time I wrote. I got a restraining order. I ran a marathon. I moved out of my house and drove across the country. I visited Sedona... a place of dreams and miracles, to which a piece of …
Continue reading Three Steps to Surviving & Thriving When Sh** Hits The Fan
The things I really want to say about “safety”
What is the deal with "safety"? Every part of my safety feels compromised, lately. Real or not, I keep finding myself in situations that seem "unsafe". Unsafe. Unsafe. I keep feeling it. Every day. It's at the heart of the work I'm doing right now, with my eating disorder. A set of behaviors that gets …
Continue reading The things I really want to say about “safety”
Trying to stay safe instead of stepping forward to meet life
Hi friends. It's time for another post. I'm writing from California. Life has taken me all over the place the past two months. It's a blessing and a challenge. The food void has deepened its expression in my life, in this time that I've been traveling. I feel trapped but I also know I'm going …
Continue reading Trying to stay safe instead of stepping forward to meet life
Food Addiction – The beginning of a long conversation
Hi friends... I don't know how to approach writing this post, and have been anxious for a while even thinking about it. I think I even showed up here and tried a few times, only to get frustrated and quit. But a part of me wants to show up, to find a way to do …
Continue reading Food Addiction – The beginning of a long conversation
Choosing thoughts wisely
I started my run this morning at 5:15 AM. Waking up early after a late night binge eating session - my stomach still feels full, I feel a little nauseous. But here I am... here I am. The thoughts are anxious, I notice. I want to just notice them, rather than be swept away. This …
Coming back to love
A poem from inside the eternal cave. From the darkness. In there it's so easy to forget the light. From here, I can see. I sing back to myself, don't cry.. You don't need to cling, don't need to hide.. the light is, always has been right here, inside! Will I ever …
A cure for loneliness
Last day in California, sadly... flying to Portland with Aidan in a few hours. I am feeling grateful for the time with family this week. It took me a few days to open up, but it was a beautiful moment when I did. I think we all needed to do the check-in. I forget how …