I started my run this morning at 5:15 AM. Waking up early after a late night binge eating session - my stomach still feels full, I feel a little nauseous. But here I am... here I am. The thoughts are anxious, I notice. I want to just notice them, rather than be swept away. This …
Author: Emma
Coming back to love
A poem from inside the eternal cave. From the darkness. In there it's so easy to forget the light. From here, I can see. I sing back to myself, don't cry.. You don't need to cling, don't need to hide.. the light is, always has been right here, inside! Will I ever …
A cure for loneliness
Last day in California, sadly... flying to Portland with Aidan in a few hours. I am feeling grateful for the time with family this week. It took me a few days to open up, but it was a beautiful moment when I did. I think we all needed to do the check-in. I forget how …
Checking in
I hired a coach a few weeks ago -- a first for me. We are working on my relationship with food, which is basically a proxy for my relationship with life and myself. For whatever reason, this has been a focal point of my life, for a long time. A recurring "problem" of my life. …
When life gets overwhelming
Sometimes it feels like life is moving very fast. When I focus on that, I get dizzy. The truth is that I am capable of moving with the flow of life and not being overwhelmed. This means embracing life as it is and accepting all that comes... it means taking real action without hesitating or …
Vacation eyes ‘Work’ warily and dreams of Art
I am in California at my dad's house, which is in the middle of a remodel process. I came here for a night after spending a week with my mom and brothers in Mendocino. This is a week of 'vacation'. It's the first significant holiday I've taken from work in the last year. When I …
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Not starting with “Sorry”
My mom and I are both cleaning out our closets right now. She calls me to tell me that she got my letter and it made her weepy. That she's going through all the papers in her house and has a hundred pounds of old bills to get rid of; how much lighter it feels, …
