It is January 4, 2019. I'm sitting at home on the couch. I've been reading, journaling, petting the house cats, thinking, feeling. So many feelings the past few days. So much processing. I broke a 55-hour dry fast with water this morning. I'm holding a water fast for now, maybe through the weekend, maybe longer. …
Continue reading I don’t know what comes next, I only know what comes now
Hello, friends. I came here today to be vulnerable and share things I am ashamed about. I ended up connecting with an idea that the things I've carried shame for my whole life might not be 'my problem', and actually underneath my shame I think I have some anger and a piece of truth to …
Continue reading I must love my shame, for it leads me to Truth
What is TRUE for me right now? I am grateful and in awe. I feel humble. Blessed. Powerful. Tuned in. I am amazed by life. It is a truly collaborative effort between me, and the force that brings all of my life to me. When I put intention into my life, my life changes. And …
Multitasking. We are all so used to doing it now, that I wonder if we forget what it is, and if it has settled into the collective blind spot.... Just a habit at this point, and one that we are training ourselves deeper into every day when we skip around on the Internet, or watch …
One of the immaturities of my writing right now, I believe, is my impulsive tendency to rush right to the point. I think good writing is more patient than that. It's not about the end point. It's about the journey you went through to get there, both as a writer and a reader. I think …
I have the utmost respect for the healer who helps the healing process unfold naturally, who is able to create and hold the space. Healing is a process that happens automatically when given the right kind of space. I see a toxicity in our modern understanding of healing, which is the application of medicine towards …
Today is Thanksgiving Day. My day officially started around 7:15am, when my dad, Aidan and I rolled out of the house to do the Turkey Day mountain bike ride. The turkey day ride is a Thanksgiving tradition for the large mountain biking community here. It's a long, hard 3 hour mountain bike ride through Marin. …
"Unwinding" is a great word to describe what happens when you've been holding on and finally get a chance to relax. My muscles are releasing. I am unfurling. The couch holds me. I am so tired and want only to sleep a long time. I'm a little upset about overbooking myself with the Thanksgiving cooking …
I want to write about some of the gems I’m finding in my search for religion lately, and I find myself hitting a bit of an internal wall about it. I fear that religious language is triggering of a negative response in people, maybe people I know and am friends with. It would have been …
Today, and the past few days, I'm thinking about my shadow. My dark side. My repressed self. Whatever you want to call it. The idea of shadow work is that there are aspects of ourselves we easily accept, and aspects we don't. The parts of ourselves we don't accept we instead repress; they live in …
Expressions from this side of the here & now 