Last day in California, sadly... flying to Portland with Aidan in a few hours. I am feeling grateful for the time with family this week. It took me a few days to open up, but it was a beautiful moment when I did. I think we all needed to do the check-in. I forget how …
Category: stream-of-consciousness
Checking in
I hired a coach a few weeks ago -- a first for me. We are working on my relationship with food, which is basically a proxy for my relationship with life and myself. For whatever reason, this has been a focal point of my life, for a long time. A recurring "problem" of my life. …
When life gets overwhelming
Sometimes it feels like life is moving very fast. When I focus on that, I get dizzy. The truth is that I am capable of moving with the flow of life and not being overwhelmed. This means embracing life as it is and accepting all that comes... it means taking real action without hesitating or …
Vacation eyes ‘Work’ warily and dreams of Art
I am in California at my dad's house, which is in the middle of a remodel process. I came here for a night after spending a week with my mom and brothers in Mendocino. This is a week of 'vacation'. It's the first significant holiday I've taken from work in the last year. When I …
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Transition from the old to the new with Love and Trust
Rewrite your stories of the individual and collective past with love. Only refer to your elders, and those who came before you, with love. Only refer to the ones who come after you, with love. Their ways are different than yours, and that is something to truly celebrate. I am shown an image of my …
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Patience… a challenge, but probably worth it
I went for a run tonight. It was 5:30 rush hour in downtown Durham. I ran, weaving up and down streets. No headphones. Lots of cars. My more relaxed moments were on the side streets. I love the relative quiet closing in around me, the world fading out. It's harder to find that feeling at …
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Let me be wild
It's so much harder to write about the ugly stuff. But I think that's when the most needs to be said. Why do I act so nice all the time? How do I get so stuck in my head? I was just listening to someone talk for like an hour and connecting with them.... …
To be instead of to seem
The way of moving forward that comes only from the head is two-dimensional, and will no longer work. It used to work better than it works now. For some people, it is still working. For others, it is being shown to be problematic. We are waking up into a new way of being. It is …
I want to work and love with my hands
For a change of pace, here's a hand-written journal piece. Have a beautiful day 🙂
On Losing My Center
How do I care for myself when I realize I've fallen off the course? I feel frantic now. Time slipped away from me again. I wasn't in my center. How long have I been away? Oh, sweet muse, won't you please guide me back home, back to myself? ... A remembering: I can't have the …
Expressions from this side of the here & now 