Last day in California, sadly... flying to Portland with Aidan in a few hours. I am feeling grateful for the time with family this week. It took me a few days to open up, but it was a beautiful moment when I did. I think we all needed to do the check-in. I forget how …
Category: stream-of-consciousness
Checking in
I hired a coach a few weeks ago -- a first for me. We are working on my relationship with food, which is basically a proxy for my relationship with life and myself. For whatever reason, this has been a focal point of my life, for a long time. A recurring "problem" of my life. …
Vacation eyes ‘Work’ warily and dreams of Art
I am in California at my dad's house, which is in the middle of a remodel process. I came here for a night after spending a week with my mom and brothers in Mendocino. This is a week of 'vacation'. It's the first significant holiday I've taken from work in the last year. When I …
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Transition from the old to the new with Love and Trust
Rewrite your stories of the individual and collective past with love. Only refer to your elders, and those who came before you, with love. Only refer to the ones who come after you, with love. Their ways are different than yours, and that is something to truly celebrate. I am shown an image of my …
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Patience… a challenge, but probably worth it
I went for a run tonight. It was 5:30 rush hour in downtown Durham. I ran, weaving up and down streets. No headphones. Lots of cars. My more relaxed moments were on the side streets. I love the relative quiet closing in around me, the world fading out. It's harder to find that feeling at …
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The wild edge: a pondering, an invitation
It refreshes and revitalizes me to be in closer contact with life. I am a physical person, so for me this pathway easily gets activated by the elements. Skin to skin contact with life. Being outside in the brisk winter air with a T-shirt on, right now. It wakes me up. The cold in particular …
Let me be wild
It's so much harder to write about the ugly stuff. But I think that's when the most needs to be said. Why do I act so nice all the time? How do I get so stuck in my head? I was just listening to someone talk for like an hour and connecting with them.... …
To be instead of to seem
The way of moving forward that comes only from the head is two-dimensional, and will no longer work. It used to work better than it works now. For some people, it is still working. For others, it is being shown to be problematic. We are waking up into a new way of being. It is …
Speak and Act
Let us begin. The day is new. The moment is taking shape as nothing we've ever seen before. We are recognizing the parts of ourselves that have no names. It is the emergence of the new, coming through us The face of this time's evolution, at once unfamiliar and exciting. Maybe those things that lurk …
Rhythms
We are mid-stride in the rhythm of Fall right now. It is an energizing part of the yearlong seasonal cycle. Rhythms are in my body. Flow is marked by rhythm. Rhythm and rhyme. Right time. Life isn't always so serious, you know? The times that are filled with laughter are pleasing to the Universe. Life …
Expressions from this side of the here & now 