Boldness. Something I am meditating on. Trying on for size. Experimenting with. Boldness is a state of being. It doesn't ask how or why. It just is. One of my newest desires, when it comes to boldness: Buy sexy clothes. Wear sexy clothes everywhere. For different environments, just wear different kinds of sexy. Like, have …
Category: My Healing Journey
Tips for Traversing the Spiritual Wilderness
When we decide to take a leap towards our dreams, based on our intuition, heart, and higher guidance... we step into the unknown. This spiritual unknown is a lot like the wilderness, and it can trigger a lot of fear in us. Some points for counteracting the chaotic side of the wilderness and thriving: 1 …
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The spirits that live on the trail
There are spirits that can only be found in the woods, on the trail, alone. They tend to congregate in the places that are hard to get to. When they possess you, you feel a great, expansive joy. It is a communion with an ancient and sacred part of life. There is no avoiding spirits, …
Patience… a challenge, but probably worth it
I went for a run tonight. It was 5:30 rush hour in downtown Durham. I ran, weaving up and down streets. No headphones. Lots of cars. My more relaxed moments were on the side streets. I love the relative quiet closing in around me, the world fading out. It's harder to find that feeling at …
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Dealing with feelings in the morning
Do you ever wake up on the wrong side of the bed, with weird or uncomfortable feelings? Waking up with wonky feelings is something that can set me off on a negative mental train, and it can hang like a cloud over me, ruining my whole day. Does that happen to you? What are your …
Personal Power & Boundary Setting in ED Recovery
I started the year with a 10 1/2 day fast, which I broke last Saturday. To my dismay, I rebounded into what felt like a long, semi-continuous binge / disordered eating episode. It's been a journey. I mean, I've been here before, and probably it's been more a part of my life than I want …
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To be instead of to seem
The way of moving forward that comes only from the head is two-dimensional, and will no longer work. It used to work better than it works now. For some people, it is still working. For others, it is being shown to be problematic. We are waking up into a new way of being. It is …
Longing to blossom into more of myself
What a journey, life. What a year so far! It started with the breakup! I mean, really, wow! I didn't see it coming, I wasn't ready for it... and yet, it is now done, and life is moving on, and slowly I am reimagining this life and my place in it. There are moments of …
It is GOOD to be a WOMAN
It is GOOD TO BE A WOMAN. For a woman is sensual, mysterious, mystical. We are the embodiment of the raw creative force; chaotic, beautiful, eternal. The power of the feminine is seen in the miracle of birth, the sensuality of curves and waves, the warmth in the places you feel most safe and loved. …
Musing on the breakup from the beach
Breakups are hard. Part of me is here, and happy to be here; part of me reaches toward the reality I just left, aches for the comfortable and the familiar. There was a stability in that structure; I built myself on top of it for four years; now I must rebuild from the ground, of …
Expressions from this side of the here & now 